While pondering why I always hate going to work, I've decided that I do enjoy my job, but the problem is that it takes up too much time in my day. Work has become a false priority because I didn't live within my means and have accumulated way too much debt. The fact of the matter is that although I care about wildlife habitat in this area, it is no longer a priority in my life. For some reason I have created other problems that need attention, so devoting 50+ hours a week to wildlife doesn't make me feel productive. Then I get frustrated and need to go relax so I end up doing recrational activities...which spend my money and also neglect important things in my life putting me even further behind my goals than before...So I have to work more to make up for it...just adding to the cycyle and intensifying the problem. The solution I have decided is simply - self control. Rather than indulging in instantly gratifying casualties, I will stick to my plan and spend my free time energetically and actively working on my prororities and goals. No matter how tired, "burned out" or un motivated I feel. "Why should I yeild to sin (or anything else) because of my flesh?!" I am taking back control of my life and building habits so I never feel this way again. It's just going to take some time.